I've made a mess

Who said you learn from mistakes? Obviously I didn't. Each and every year I do the same thing over and over again. Prepared or not prior to examinations, I've managed to screw up almost every paper and ended up hoping some miracle would pop out and help me through. Last time, I've always pulled an all nighter because I wasn't prepared for a paper. With incentive this time around I was able to start revising ages ago. About a month to be exact. The incentive this time is my opportunity to apply for scholarship with the results from my current exam.

My chances of getting it is riding on each and every paper and coursework. Towards the end of the year I'd fairly say that I've done enough to satisfy many criteria. Just like football matches; Cristiano Ronaldo missed two successive penalties in the semis and the final of Champions League; I'm starting to fire blanks for my examinations.

It was MATLAB exam just now. The night before I was answering the past year papers with a few hitches. Come exam time I froze at the sight of the questions. The questions posted was nothing I've seen before. There were combination of commands which caught me off guard. Staring around me, I saw different expressions in everybody's body language. Only one thing in common in the expressions; 'Some shit ass difficult paper this is'. The only right thing to do is to do all possible questions as calm as possible. Past the one hour mark I've done answering the questions I know of. As I struggled through the rest of the question, my mind drifted to another type of calculation. I calculated my chances of even getting a borderline score so I don't have to resit this particular paper.

Towards the end of the examination, no one had their heads up. Felt a little comfortable. Most of my friends found the paper pretty hard. Even Mr. Computer Genius was shitting blood trying to figure the answers. Not sure if that was telling me that I'm in a comfort zone, but one thing is for sure; I've let down myself yet again. I've let my messed up mind take over my confidence again and again.

Today is done and over with. In 12 hours, I'm facing another paper. Yes, I'm almost prepared. I have yet to attempt the past year papers and will get down to it after this.

You know what, maybe the pressure is getting to me without me noticing its been pushing all this time. Whatever it is, giving up isn't in my dictionary.

Wish me luck,
the12thplayer

Why can't I stop
Maybe I'm weak...
Maybe I'm addicted...
Probably I don't want to...

Champions League Final

Manchester United vs Chelsea

Today is the day to settle who is the best in Europe. Can Sir Alex Ferguson guide his team of mixed talents and experience to glory? Or can Avram Grant produce a Cinderella story after a dramatic first season? Sir Alex Ferguson has two European Cup under his belt, but it has been almost a decade since hes lifted the trophy or even reached the final. Avram Grant's side have nothing to lose as they could end the season trophyless. I've pulled together a few you-need-to-know's ahead of the big final. Putting aside the fact that I am a Manchester United fanatic, I really feel that this going to be a very tight game just like last season's FA Cup Final. One slip up and the game will swing towards opponent.

Statistics:
In the last 5 meetings Manchester United won 1 game, drew twice and lost twice with Chelsea losing at Avram Grant's first game in charge. Having said that, high-flying Cristiano Ronaldo haven't score against Chelsea. Yes, Ronaldo is the Champions League's top scorer bagging 7 goals this season. Right behind him is recently on fire Didier Drogba with 6 Champions League goals. These two goal machines will be playing their first ever Final and are linked to summer moves to La Liga. This might be Chelsea's first Final but they have players who has been in the final and some even tasted European Glory. Carvalho won it with FC Porto, Ballack won it with Bayern Munich, Makelele won it with Real Madrid and Ashley Cole was runner up with Arsenal.

Manchester United on the other hand has Ryan Giggs, Paul Scholes, Gary Neville and Wes Brown from the Treble Winning Class of 98-99 season. And there's Owen Hargreaves who won the Cup with Ballack during their Bayern Munich years.

Strengths

Manchester United - United's Holy Trinity (Ronaldo, Rooney and Tevez) is well known for creating goals out of nothing. The trio scored 57 goals together in the Premier League. Wes Brown was the weak link for the best defense, which conceded 22 goals all season, in the League during the early stages of the season but has gained confidence lately. Main weakness of United is the young minds; if provoked could spell disaster.

Chelsea - On a good day Chelsea is very difficult to beat. The midfield is practially occupied by legends. The defense rarely makes mistakes which all points towards the attacking players whether they can perform or not. Drogba is not consistent throughout this season and the other striking option lays upon Anelka. Good substituion timing will be key for Chelsea as they did against Liverpool.

Possible Head-to-Head's

Seeing that Manchester United limited their attacking display against Barcelona; the Holy Trinity will be raring to produce mouth watering combination. Cole will have to try stop Ronaldo's run and Terry will have to on top form to battle strengths against Tevez and Rooney. Paul Scholes has finally found his shooting boots with that wonder goal against Barca. However United cannot afford to slip up in midfield with Makelele, Lampard and Ballack are capable of producing chances.

Possible Result

Although most betting companies are putting the odds against Manchester United given the statistics, I believe Manchester United will win the Final since all the players are fit and on top form.

Ok, break time is over. Its time for me to return to my studies. Hopefully I've dropped enough football knowledge. For the fun of it, if Metis dare take up my challenge; if Manchester United wins the Champions League he will be my bitch for a weekend. Well, if the result is the other way round (touch wood) the deal will be vice versa. Deal? Hahaha... I DARE YOU BOY.

Watch the Game people,
the12thplayer

This.. I'll never forget.

For some, the fever is over. For others, the time is about to come. As for us here in Birmingham, we are smack right in the middle of examination season. Cramming past midnight and towards dusk is a norm for most BiBers. To make things worse, the good sunny warm weather we had last week ran off to God-knows where leaving us with lows of 5 and highs of 15 degree celcius. Yesterday is no different. Everyone shifting study places to avoid the evil dose of youtube and facebook. Kayun went the extra distance of picking to study in my room. Following suit is Azrul and Mallie. At 2ish in the afternoon, all four of us in my room with notes scattered all over the bed and an extra table brought in to accommodate Mallie. Well there is discussion amongst everyone. Jumping from Carnot Cycle to "Ton, pasang lagu Karispatih" and to "Ton, telefonkan si Hajah and suruh ia... ani... atu... Battery ku low"

Picked up my handphone and scrolled for the name "Hajah"

Me: (ringing tone starts) Mal, lurus ka ni nombor ku takan ani.

Everyone just stared and waited

Hajah: Hello?

Me: Hello jah. Tony ni.

Hajah: Huh? Siapa

I thought to myself, "Main-main lagi si Hajah ani".

Me: Jah, Tony ni. Kayun kan.... apa ah?

Turned to Kayun and asked what she wanted.

Me: Hello... Jah...

Hajah: Ah? Apa? Siapa kan ni?

Huh? This should be the right number.

Me: Tony bah ni. Kayun suruh keluarkan bajunya dari machine and simpankan dalam bilik.

Hajah: Tony? Siapa?

Dumbstruck...! Azrul shot a holy-shy+ face, "Hajah kawan ku di London kali?"

Me: (wish to be dead embarrased already) Hah?! Ummm... Sorry... -what to do?!-

Throws the phone to Azrul!

Azrul: Hajah! Sorry. Kawan ku salah nombor. Ia pikir ia telefon kawan kami si Hajah yang seorang lagi. Sorry sorry..

Hangs up and the whole room burst into laughter as I planted my face deep into my mattress with a pillow over the back of my head.

...

...

-___-

The laughter subsided after 5 minutes or so with everyone in the room embarrasing me more.

I am so embarrassed... Good thing I have no rep to start with. Ugh.

I have always embarrassed myself in public. Whether its with my family or with my friends, embarrassing moments never fail to make its appearance; what else around really hot babes - makes me even nervous. Making a fool of myself is something that happened on a regular basis that its normal for everyone around me. I've always taken cautious measure to prevent these moments from happening.

Zipped up? check!
Anything on my teeth? check!
Watch where you are stepping? check!

Nevertheless, goofyness is unavoidable. No, its not a disease because for me embarrassing moments makes me look back and laugh and at the same time prevents me from making the same mistakes in the future for bigger goofs to emerge. (like above)

Hajah texted Azrul minutes later saying, "I'll never forget that". I'm really sorry if I disturbed you from what you were doing and caused any discomfort. And if you heard the laughters over the phone, don't worry... They are laughing with you.. Laughing at me! I'll take back the 'Most embarrassing moment was puking on slippers and shoes' because nothing is more embarrassing than making a fool out of yourself in front of someone you don't know at all. This everybody has got to be the most... wait for it... EMBARRASSING MOMENT in my life. And thats official since I used the Barney Legendary line.

Take Care,
the12thplayer

Cry, and you cry alone
Laugh and the whole world will laugh with you
or at you...

NisaZ tagged me

Hi,

I've seen this in emails, friendster bulletin boards and facebook notes. Haven't done it before because I've always have this thought of people reading through all this and judging me and so on. But this time... well... what the heck... when you want to do something just do it. Let the future you worry about the consequences. Haha... no worries Nisa. Its not like you forced me to do it. Its good fun. Here goes:

1. Where did you meet your bestfriend(s)?
= Well, at first it was Suresh and Kok Liang back when I started Kindergarten. Then met Kenneth (who is my next door neighbour and classmate) during secondary years. Along the way got closer to Jasmine and Liberty (knew them since primary years tho). Finally, met Sidney through Kenneth during a one of our sneak-out-from-home mission. Maktab Duli years; Metis from my Maths class(who already been a long time friends with Sidney).

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
= Ayers Rock, Grand Canyon, Loch Ness and finally to Ibiza.

3. What's your favourite thing to do?
= a good long chats with friends over coffee/tea or a meal.

4. Which character out of your favourite Movie/Tv Show would you be?
= John Casey of 'Chuck'

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
= A book of quotes taken from me written and sold in Pustaka Remaja and Bismi.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
= Not here in the UK. But I would certainly survive in Brunei.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
= My source of happiness; family and friends.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
= Open a restaurant. The left overs are for tips and sidewalk beggars.

9. What is the most recent embarassing thing you have done?
= It has to be puking due to OD on anything. I remembered eating way too much during a christmas gathering and puked on relatives' shoes and slippers before I got to the kitchen. Gross..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
= Really takes care of almost everyone.
= Does not judge at all.
= Cooks real good food. (Seriously good food)

11. What makes you happy?
= Spending time with family and friends. Spending time with my little brother is the best. Imagine what innocent kids can come up with.

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
= Persistent, stuck up people.

13. What is your ambition?
= Have a certain amount of success

14. What did you regret doing?
= Always thinking way too much before taking the next step.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
= My responsibility to my family.

16. If you were a car/bike what would it be?
= A shiny white Audi R8. Feel my presance from miles away bebeh!

17. If you have a chance which part of your character would you like to change?
= Just for once, take some things seriously.

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
= Juneau - Funeral For A Friend

19. What is your least favourite animal?
= Pesky insects.

20. What is your ultimate addiction?
= Video Games!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 friends. I tag:

Metis
Leong
Wendy
Huda
Aline
Lydia

Only one,
the12thplayer

New Layout

Hey people,

Check it out. Decided to take off the old layout and stick up a layout from pyzam.com. As you can see I did some editing to the background and stuffed my picture just to show how competent I am with computer stuffs. I picked black for a background in an attempt to do something completely opposite to my previous layout (it was white colour just in case you are zoning out now). I know its exam time and I'm doing all this, but all this keeps my mind working and a little focused. Also, my next exam is not till 22nd, so all the more reason for me to squeeze some creativity time right?

Anyways, a little shout out to Kristy PC and Dk Ariana for their birthday (belated in fact). I hope you guys enjoyed your birthday. Well Ar is busy preparing for her exams but no harm in enjoying a little bit. As for PC her exams habis sudah, so no problemo. About exams, good luck again to all facing papers as tough as hell. A little advice from me, if you are caught revising last minute, check out youtube.com on how to cheat in exams. I haven't tried any yet but if any of you succeed, congrats!

So, I hope everyone is in good health for exams (and keep healthy) as mine is deteriorating a little. Well, just a small allergy problem (I think I'm allergic to revision).

Keep it real people,
the12thplayer

Glory Glory Man United
Now, for the Champs League.
And then equal Liverpool's Domestic Cup record

Men's Rules

Hallo,

Decided to make up for loss time by posting in a quick succession. Read it off a forum, 'th3zone.com', and its pretty funny and has some truths to it. Take a look:

These are our rules!
Please note these are all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!
1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports: It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to-say - during commercials..

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine ...Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Rugby, or Football, or golf, or Sex.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.

Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh.

Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a bigger laugh.

Enjoy,
the12thplayer

A woman needs to know but one man well to understand all men;
whereas a man may know all women and not understand one of them
-Hellen Rowland

Spread Shit

"If you're stuck, take a step or two back and try again. If you're still stuck after 5 steps, forget 'square one'! You're f*ck*d
-ME!!

Kusut! Mintal! Tension! ARGHH!

Gosh.. Its been ages since I've been under pressure. I'm doing a report on this Combined Heat and Power System (I put that in just to look cool.. damn cool right?) and damn stuck on the SPREAD SH|+. NEGATIVE VALUES is what I'm getting! Where on earth do you get negative values of price of electricity and gas? Maybe its me simply being stupid. All I do all day is sit at my chair and yet I still can't find the right formula for the calculations. I swear my chair already has my butt print on it.



Haha.. Anger aside. Its been a straining, eyebagging week for me. Just like most people, I picked to do work and study past midnight and sleep when the sun is up. But for the last few days 10am is my bed time. Ugh. Feel like batman already. But works for me eventhough I know its bad for health. And the effects kinda showed up yesterday.

Storynya like this... Went over to 8 First Avenue (Lisyah's place) to chill. Chill punya chill and story punya story, got in to a silly disagreement with Eena (wassup vice-prez!) on a out-of-the point topic on my theory of Male ego vs Female pride. My theory states that (wah seh!) ego is applicable to dudes while pride is applicable to babes. Proof? Check it out:

Tony: Stress ku!
Eena: Cry it out.. Baik tu karang
Tony: Crying are for sissies <--- ego
Eena: Its ok for guys to cry <--- pride

You talk shit Tony!! Hahaha. Ok ok... Chill...

BTW. Watched Iron Man tadi and heck, the babes squealing 'Tony... Tonyyy' in the scene where Tony Stark walks the red carpet sounds OUT! I've always held pride in my cool name and that few second just proved to me how the coolness to my name has its limits. NYEH!

Well, I don't have much word to spare since I'm not my talkative self as of late so I'll just post picture of my study table.




Good luck,
the12thplayer

Proof Tony Stark has a heart
-Virginia 'Pepper' Potts (IronMan)